March 2012
133 posts
like-me-4-me asked: Anon fuck off she's perfect leave her alone how would you like being called fat ? you wouldn't so don't go around spreading anon hate what if she had an eating disorder and you just made her feel horrible I'm not saying she does but watch what you say to people she's perfect the way she is hop off Sorry hun ignore the haterz <3
Anonymous asked: You're fat, sorry not meaning to be rude but its true
Anonymous asked: How much do you weigh?
Food;
Didn’t eat breakfast, got mcdonalds at 11:30. 2 cheeseburgers, 6 chicken nuggets, medium fries, medium pop. I swear it took me less than 10 minutes to eat all that, because I had to drive to work, I started at 12:00 and I was 5 minutes early. Its a 20 minute drive and I wasn’t eating while I was driving.
But, my point was, last day of my period today, and I’m so bloated. Like,...
Anonymous asked: You should be proud of yourself for lasting so long:)
February 2012
238 posts
Every single movement is fire.
But its okay, I deserve this.
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It hurts guys...I can hardly stand up or bend my...
Anonymous asked: How long did you last? 13 or 14 days completely clean? That's fucking amazing, I'm so proud of you <3 relapsing is okay. In fact, it's completely natural. But tell you what you could do it you wanted? Make it a goal to go 15 days this time. Or 14 if it was 13 you were clean. Just 1 extra day, that's all. If you can do that, you'll know you have control over this again,...
Is that rum? Are you that bored?
I’m not bored, I’m a pirate.
Anonymous asked: hey, i am desperately trying not to cut, is there anything you can tell me that might help? i follow your blog and i think you understand the feelings. :/
I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It hurts so badly inside, I...
As I was walking home I was thinking;
Reasons not to kill myself.
(that other people would think of, not me…)
& the first one to pop into my head was; BECAUSE IT GETS BETTER.
But it doesn’t, it doesn’t, it fucking doesn’t. It hasn’t, it won’t its so impossible, I can’t live like this.
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And now I’m going to shower. And I bought new blades, and I’m trying to come up...
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My name is ______, and I'm an alcholic.
Not for reals, but what else do you call this?
Oh and I bought new ones.
(13 days clean. I’m not going to use them. Not yet. Not tonight. Fuck, I’m sorry everyone…I shouldn’t have bought them.)
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Wow.
They told me to go home from work.
Bitches.
Quitting as soon as I find something else.
Sat outside for half an hour before the bus came.
Walked home from eaux claires. Two fucking hours gone.
…
Oh and I was wearing flats! And we’ve got 2 feet of snow here.
3OH!3 and bus rides…ugh, I got foundation on my blazer, and my cold of 4 weeks is still going strong. I need to brush my teeth before I leave, rice and coconut cookies for breakfast. Seriously girl? What the fuck is my problem.
Anonymous asked: You aren't breaking. You're doing so well. This is a slow, long process, I know, but we're all here with you every step of the day. You seem so strong-willed, and that's why I believe you can beat this thing. If ever you fall, we'll be right here to pick you back up. You aren't alone. <3
Anonymous asked: Look at yourself, you already made it so far. You're alive right now, at this moment, and that means something. It means that you have defeated all odds and showed the world that you are better, stronger, than what they thought. Life put you through something terrible. Maybe you broke down along the way. But you always got back up, right? Things have to get worse before they get better, so...
I want to, but I can't. I can't, I can't. I was...
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I'm breaking guys...
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I remember on grad, I was so excited, and so hyper during the entire thing. And my date, Heshan, and my old friend Kelvin kept laughing at me and telling me to calm down. They didn’t know that I never expected to live that long, that back when highschool started I was suicidal, and those thoughts manifested into habitual, semi-serious self-harm throughout grades 10, 11, and 12. On days when...
Anonymous asked: you are amazing....what a strong and beautiful person. You deserve to be happy and healthy. Be proud of what you are doing. Sending you good thoughts <3
Each day clean is easier, yet harder, than the...
I want to cut so badly, but the longer I go without, and the more progress I make the more significant and real my success is. I want to get better. I am torn.
Mostly feeling lonely right now, thinking about that boy from last night. He was sweet, I told him to text me, so that maybe we could hook up. And he told me that wasn’t what he wanted. He said that he wanted to get to know me. And I laughed. And I told him the only thing he had to know about me was that I was crazy. I think in my intoxicated state I gave him the wrong number. But then a...
Anonymous asked: strong, crazy, brave!!
Anonymous asked: strong-willed, confused, cute.
Describe me in three words, anon or not. →
I'm not pretty like those other girls... I think...
=/ Seriously wondering about this. I’m so much different from them, not just the way I look, but how I carry myself, and how I interact with people. Thoughts?
Anonymous asked: what do you mean? do you actually see things or just have a bad feeling? is this new?
11 days clean, I’m starting to think that I broke something in my brain when I decided to quit. It feels like this mental instability is manifesting into something more, something bigger than myself.
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I think I've started to see things. Demons,...
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Last nighhht;
Sorry for this pointless post in advance. I got drunk, but not too drunk. Was lots of fun, but it was honestly so weird, because at the beginning of the night when we got to the club, all of these girls were hitting on me, seriously. (Its a straight club, soooo..umm.. okay?) & I dunno. I enjoyed it, cause I was still sober, and still scoping out the guys lmao. (Start dancing on the speaker,...
Oh! And 10days clean.
Social suicide.
Just kidding, not going to Vinyl tonight. EVERYONE is going. Everyone I hate. Everyone who’s popular.
I’m going to Lucky, my favorite. I’m going to dance on speakers, and kiss boys I don’t know. Stay away from haters. Just feel close, and safe, and high. Drink, feel warm. Love. I don’t need to hide my scars.
<3
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